Ananya pushes open the swinging door that separates the kitchen from the dining room and enters carrying a tray holding four bowls and a plate of naan. As she walks in she brings with her the scents of saffron, garam masala, curry, and cinnamon. She’s wearing a bright yellow sari that wraps around her slender body in layers and drapes over her black hair. There’s a vermilion dot in the middle of her forehead; she’s a married woman. The silver bracelets on her wrists jingle as she places the tray on the table. Silently she scoops servings of rice, vegetable masala, and fish rubbed with spices on our plates, and puts slices of mango and naan on smaller dishes next to the plates.
“This looks delicious, Ananya,” I say as I inhale the spices wafting from the masala.
She nods and smiles wanly, but doesn’t look at me. Her eyes are the shape of almonds and her dark skin the texture of silk. In the month we’ve been here she has said less than a dozen words to me. We watch each other warily. Her glances are always furtive; my stares are direct.
She turns her gaze to Leah and after a moment of searching the inscrutable expression on my wife’s face, she says, “I hope this is to your liking, Mahodaya.” She never calls my wife by her name, but instead uses the Hindi word for madam.
Leah blinks hard, as if suddenly awakened and stares down at the fish. “There wasn’t any chicken?” she asks.
“You asked that I cook fish, Mahodaya,” Ananya replies. barely able to mask the hurt in her tone.
Leah looks at Ananya, smiles warmly, and gently places her hand on Ananya’s arm. “Oh yes, forgive me Ananya, I forgot.”
“Tell me, Ananya. Doesn’t your husband mind that you cook for us every night?” I ask as I shovel a chunk of potato dripping with reddish-brown curry sauce into my mouth.
Ananya adjusts a bracelet on her wrist, averts her eyes from mine, and says, “My husband is working in New Delhi while I remain here to look after our parents.” She repositions the cloth that covers her hair. “Will there be anything else?” She’s looking at Leah when she asks this.
“Not for now,” Leah and I say in unison.
For the remainder of the meal Ananya remains in the kitchen. Leah is quiet throughout the meal, studying her plate as if it were a getaway map. When we finish eating, Leah helps Ananya clear the table. Before leaving the dining room I hear the two of them in the kitchen whispering and giggling like school girls. There’s a musicality to their merriment, like the warbling of song birds
#
Seeing Leah through the mosquito netting around the bed is like looking at her through a gauzy mist. She’s sitting on the stool to the vanity dresser and staring at her reflection in the mirror as she takes long, slow strokes with the brush through her blonde hair. The bedroom has the scent of jasmine, the fragrance of the perfume she sprays on her wrists before coming to bed.
“Ananya is very pretty, don’t you think?” I ask.
“You’re just now noticing?” Leah replies. She places the brush on the dresser, stands and removes her robe. She’s wearing the pale blue nightgown she wore during our honeymoon the year before. Walking to her side of the bed she appears to float, like an apparition. She extinguishes the flame in the lantern by the bed and climbs in. I reach over to touch her, to caress her.
“Not tonight,” she says.
I then notice in the ambient light two of Ananya’s bracelets on Leah’s wrist. “Did Ananya give those to you?” I say.
“Of course,” Leah says. “She wants me to feel less lonely.”
The cotton sheet that covers my body suddenly feels like a pile of rocks, pinning me to my place in the bed.
#
The school is a large one room structure built of cinder blocks brought here from New Delhi. It’s unpainted and there is no glass in the four windows and no door. The thirty-one students share desks that have broken tops and wobbly seats. There’s a crack down the center of the blackboard. I teach the upper grades in English, while Mehul teaches the younger grades in Hindi. Mehul is a bachelor and lives alone in a small shack behind the school. He’s made it clear that he resents that I live in the finest house in the village that is paid for with foreign currency.
“Your brand of modern colonialism is no better than the old colonialism,” he told me angrily the first day we met.
Other than to discuss students, he rarely talks to me.
I’m at the blackboard and writing verbs when I hear shouts and screaming coming from the center of the village. The students rush to the windows and climb on one another to see what is happening. “Haathee,” they begin to yell with panicked excitement. I stand behind them and see villagers running toward the direction of the bungalow.
“What is it?” I say to Mehul who is standing in the doorway.
“Elephants are on their trail,” he says. “They are extremely dangerous.”
“Where’s the trail?”
“It runs alongside where you’re living.”
I push him aside and run out of the school and down the road, shoving aside the villagers who have clogged the road to get a glimpse of the elephants. They’ve seen wild elephants before of course, but their fear of and fascination with them is palpable; they gawk, but stand ready to run. I’ve only seen elephants in zoos. I stop fifty yards from the bungalow and see that Leah is standing in the yard with Ananya, not ten yards away from an enormous bull elephant and a smaller, albeit still large, cow. The elephants have stopped and are rocking back and forth, waving their trunks, and flapping their ears. The bull’s bellowing is deafening. There is no actual trail, but where they stand is the same path the elephants take whenever they enter the village.
Then the bull charges at the women.
Helplessly I watch as Ananya pushes Leah aside and out of the path of the charging elephant, and shouts as she waves her arms. With all the ferocity of a runaway train the elephant knocks her to the ground and then tramples on her. Their rampage done, the two elephants run into the brush beneath the banyan trees and disappear from sight.
I reach Leah as she begins to crawl to the broken body of Ananya. I take her in my arms and rock her as she wails.
“She was in love with me,” Leah says, choking back a sob.
I want to respond, to explain that if Ananya had actually been in love with her, it was meaningless.
She looks into my eyes, possibly searching for my soul, and says, “I was in love with her too.”
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